Showing posts with label Living Income Guaranteed. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Living Income Guaranteed. Show all posts
Friday, 25 September 2015
Friday, 16 January 2015
Day 47 - I Choose to Live
I have also seen how you can tire yourself out and make things worse than they actually are just by deciding that you are unwilling to do it, then you will be dreading the task and thinking about how difficult it is going to be and by doing these things you will actually make it more difficult and make yourself angry and irritated.
This is a quote from Osho:
'To be ordinary is the only extraordinary thing. Very rarely somebody relaxes and becomes ordinary. If you ask Zen masters, 'What do you do?' they will say, 'We fetch wood from the forest, we carry water from the well. We eat when we feel hungry, we drink when we feel thirsty, we go to sleep when we feel tired. This is all.'
It does not look very appealing -- fetching wood, carrying water, sitting, eating. You will say, 'These are ordinary things. Everybody is doing them.'
These are not ordinary things, and nobody is doing them. When you are fetching wood, you are condemning it -- you would like to be the president of some country. You don't want to be a woodcutter. You keep condemning the present for some imaginary future.
Carrying water from the well, you feel you are wasting your life. You are angry. You were not made for such ordinary things. You had come with a great destiny -- to lead the whole world towards a paradise, some utopia.
These are all ego-trips. These are all in states of consciousness.
Just to be ordinary... and then suddenly what you call trivia is no more trivia, what you call profane is no more profane. Everything becomes sacred. Carrying wood becomes sacred. Fetching water from the well becomes sacred.'
It is fascinating that this is what we do within ourselves whenever there we are doing something, it is never the simplicity and acceptance of “doing the ordinary and menial task”, it has become the total ego trip of ourselves to condemn and think we are better than these things. I need to go fix a fence and all the while I am thinking that I could be doing some grand and important thing trying to make myself feel better about doing this simple, practical common sense task and within trying to make myself fell important I actually make myself angry at the fact that I am not important or special.
None of us are special or important, this is the point we all have to realise.
We are all the same, we all have to eat, sleep, drink and defecate. This one simple point of accepting the fact that we are the same and all have the same problems would make the world a better place for all of us to live in. For if you saw your neighbour as the same as you and treated them as you would want to be treated wouldn’t the world be calmer, safer and give us all a chance to really work to change ourselves and our world into a world and life that we would all enjoy?
I am willing and able to do this and I have chosen to do this, I want my future children to grow up without worrying about being killed when they are sleeping and to be able to enjoy themselves without having to block out the suffering of the people around us as we all had to.
Thursday, 29 August 2013
Day 41 - The Children of our Future
I see a lot of people go into fear about having children.
For me the fear is that I will pass on “bad” physical genes and that the points
that the child has to overcome from my DNA will be more than necessary. I
realise that the child will have points both physical and personal that are
passed on through our DNA that the child must work through no matter how much I
want them to be ‘invulnerable’.
The main point - from my perspective – that is different to
the responsibility of raising an animal or raising a child, is that the animal
does not have my DNA within themselves and that the child does. Within this,
the perception is easily created that it is like fixing someone else’s fuckup
instead of my own. From my mind’s perspective, it enables me to place the
responsibility for a lot of the animal’s base character designs within
something other than myself, whereas with a child the responsibility for his
base character design comes undeniably from me and my partner.
I am not saying that the act of raising a child and an
animal is the same; I am only trying to say the principles of how to raise them
are. I will teach them how to live within common sense and show them how to
consider what is best for all in every decision they make. I show my animals
this point as much as possible, but there is a communication ‘barrier’ that
makes it more difficult. I am confident in the fact that I will be able to
bring the message of “do unto another as you would like to be done unto” either
as clearly or more clearly to my children.
I ask my animals to treat me with the same respect I show to
them and that is all I would ask of my child, taking into account the
unfortunate difficulties of this world that the child would have to be shown –
how to work with and how to survive in a world of greed. I will have to teach
them about the world even though I did not enjoy it when I was young. I will
ensure that the child is able to stand no matter how hard the shit hits the fan
– which would mean that it will not be easy but it will be necessary for them
to learn about the how and the why the world works the way it does now.
I would’ve preferred to bring my child into a world that I
can be proud of and that the child would be safe but, children that are taught
that they must stand together to change the world are necessary to assist in
the change that will come. (Note: I am
not saying that everyone should have kids now, I am rather placing my current
process into understanding and due to the fact that I have had an upbringing
mainly based on support within the principle of what is best for all – as my
father was standing this example throughout my life – I am clear on the fact
that at this stage in my process and my life, I can support a child effectively.
The decision to have a child will be made by each one according to their own
process and of course the ability to support a child financially.)
I ask now for the forgiveness of my child or children for
the amount of responsibility I am laying on their shoulders.
I ask that they realise that there is no other way to ensure
that the world will change sooner rather than them having to pass it on to
their children.
I realise that my children will have the best life that I
can provide for them, but they will not be able to live free until all can
stand together, equal as one, for what is best for all.
Friday, 23 August 2013
Day 40 - The Weight of my Day
Recently we have been quite busy on the farm with Bernard
passing so suddenly and we had contractors that just finished the new parrot
aviary and porch and the fact that Leila’s kid is going to come soon , we have
had to deal with all of these things happening and also carry on preparing all
the points for the baby. I feel like it is a weight that isn’t getting much
lighter. The workload seems to get bigger and bigger, it looks like we might
not get to do everything as soon as we had planned. I don’t like having to
shove things together and try to do or manage 10 things at once; I prefer
having to focus on one point at a time.
I realize that this is actually quite a cool test to see how
I and we do under excessive amounts of pressure, and I for one have been
pushing hard to get as much done in the short amount of time we have available
to us to the point of my body getting the flu just to make me realize that I have
to slow down. From the day after Bernard died I was off of the farm 5 out of 7
days, either sorting things out or doing shopping for the contractor or food
shopping and the one day I actually had to go into town, come back and go back
into town again!
The one night I just started feeling sickish and the next
day woke up sick – I was only sick for about 3 days really – and when I felt
how badly my body felt I realized that I had pushed myself too hard and not
considered that I had gone through a massive shock – physically and otherwise.
I accepted in that moment that I would push myself as much as I could but, that
it is impractical to be uselessly sick for days because of pushing too hard. Unfortunately
this means that I am not superman:).
I can only do so much before my body gives out and requires rest. My point with
sharing this is that keeping myself busy so as not too focus too much on the
point of Bernard is useful to be able to focus on what needs to be done day by
day but, that this can only work if I allow myself some time to adjust and
align myself with what must be done next. I mainly focused on keeping myself
stable and assisting other people as much as possible or working on the farm so
as to focus on avoiding to look at what Bernard’s death meant for me and how I
needed to move forward after he had died.
I have seen today that I still have the tendency of trying
to rush through points without considering all of the factors involved and that
I am trying to make myself move faster though the workload without considering
that it is more practical to look at points in their entirety instead of
skipping through the basics as if I know better.
I realize that all of these points culminate in the point of
me not focusing on my breathing but rather allowing myself to be consumed by
the desire to prove myself as worthy by pushing myself beyond common sense
practicality and into simple, distracting ego.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use
ego as a distraction and as a way to not focus on breath
I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into ego
or trying to distract myself with workloads and time limits – I stop, breathe
and look at the problem facing me with practical common sense
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be
overwhelm by the amount of work there is to be done and therefore utilising
this as an excuse to get out of the work thinking it will just go away
I commit myself to when and as I go into fear and anxiety
about how high my workload is – I stop, breathe and focus on one point at a
time to ensure that I am considering all outcomes instead of getting bitten in
the ass in the future because I forgot to check the quality of the work and not
rely on the quantity to tip the scales.
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