A point I noticed within anger is that it comes up as a small point and when I get angry I feel it as a wheel that spins. The angrier I get the faster and harder the wheel spins. Within the wheel I see past experiences of anger. I can place myself within the experience of anger even now with no reason and what I see within this is that the anger is always here just waiting to build up and explode. With working outside I use anger to push myself to do more and it causes me to do less. I see the point when I do stables especially, as doing stables seems like a waste of my time, but I do it as it is my Duty. I use the word Duty as if I am forced to do it against my will and then use it to manipulate people. When I use anger to do stables I start feeling annoyed with my body and take more time to do them, using the justification that I am sore, tired or have to do something else first. I actually enjoy working outside, but have now turned it into a chore or a Duty, instead of accepting responsibility of the work and allowing myself to thrive in it with all of the plans I have to make improvements. I make plans, but do not follow through like I used to, as I have poisoned the point with anger.
I commit myself to working on my anger and moving through it, as it is holding me back
I commit myself to not use anger as a hiding place
I commit myself to not rely on others to push and motivate me to accept and follow through on my responsibilities
I commit myself to motivate and push myself
I commit myself allow myself to accept the joy and satisfaction that writing has brought me and I commit myself to writing something every day no matter how small
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Monday, 3 November 2014
Day 46 - Call of Duty
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Saturday, 31 May 2014
Day 44 - The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle
1. Realising and
living my utmost potential
2. Living by the
principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to
always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all
3. Living by the
principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that
my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and
vice-versa
4. Self
Purification through Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Application – the
action of realising I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to
forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take
responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can
trust myself to always be honest with me and so others
5. Living the
principle of Self Responsibility – realising only I am responsible for what I
accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so
with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that
which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others
6. Realising
that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as
well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take
responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every
moment and live in such a way that is
best for me and so others as well
7. Living the
Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts
and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for
when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to
immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others
8. With taking
responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility and
become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting
and supporting myself – to give as you would like to receive and do the extra
bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own
9. Living the
principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of
self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending
trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in
this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour
and stand by what is best for all and so best for me
10. Making Love
Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost
potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love
them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the
best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it
means to LIVE
11. No one can save
you, save yourself – the realisation that the tools and principles of Desteni
is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and
support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and
what it means to live – but the process itself, where you are alone with
yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone
12. Not waiting for
anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I
realise I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the
responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realisation that we as a
collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the
responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today
13. Honouring the
life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of earth,
that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible
life for everyone and everything and so ourselves
14. Relationships
as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to
one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to
support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where
the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means
to stand as equals and to stand as one
15. Sex as Self
Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour,
respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies
uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.
16. Realising that
by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only
extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything
and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to
all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on
earth for ourselves and the generations to come
17. I must in my
thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become a
living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it
comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their
world. So that more people can realise how we can change this world, by
standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all
to bring heaven to earth
18. I am the change
I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being,
into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard
in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation
in this living world.
19. Through
purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring
into creation me as heaven into earth, realising it is not enough to ‘see the
change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant,
consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible
and noticeable to all in every moment of breath
20. Realising that
my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through
which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on
earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honour, respect and regard
– nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as
equals: my body is me
21. We are the
change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to
dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realise this, as nothing
will change if we don’t change in all that we are, within and without
22. The realisation
that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most
effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know
thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I
became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a
responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for
all
23. The realisation
that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get to
‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and
introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of
today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth
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Sunday, 9 June 2013
Day 37 - The Big Problem of "Little Things"
I was in town the other day buying equipment for the farm and picking up food for the animals and what happened was that I got distracted in terms of what I needed to do and I had not written everything down so, I forgot to collect some of the food that was bought earlier in the day. I had to go back the next day to collect it as some of the shops don’t like it when the stuff isn’t picked up soon after it is bought. It meant that I had to waste time and spend half of another day in town when I could’ve been working on the farm, especially since there isn’t many people capable of doing the physical work that I do.(There isn’t many guys - lol)
The point that I realised from this – and other instances – is that if you are not stable and focused, you easily get distracted from what you need to do. I also was in a rush as I don’t enjoy being in town and I had been there almost the whole day already.
I also realized that I need to be more diligent in writing points that need to be done as work is easily forgotten and you cannot rely on memory to keep track of all the work. There is many little things that get forgotten as they are not very important and other big problems that need fixing get in the way so, the little things start to pile up higher and higher until they are also big problems.
The point that I see is that whenever I can pay attention to the little things instead of leaving it for the next day – which often turns into the next month – I will place whatever spare time that I have available to taking on the small points so as to Prevent them from turning into Big problems.
The same thing can be said in terms of my personal process – meaning that when I see I am allowing a “small” point to influence me, I stop and correct it before it compiles into a possession/obsession or causes me to create conflict as an outflow onto the beings around me.
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