Day 61 - Responsibility of an animal lover

We hold the lives of animals in our hands when we take on the responsibility of their care, cherish it and place yourself in their shoes when the time comes.

Day 34 - Animals Deserve Better

Why is it that people would torture an animal before slaughtering and eating them? It’s bad enough that we need to consume animals for our own survival, but is it really necessary to torture them beforehand?

From my perspective: would it not be better to give the animals the best possible life they can have and once they are old and their quality of life is being reduced by their age, to then only consider slaughtering them for human consumption. 

For another point: the person that wants to consume the animal - should take part in the upbringing and welfare of the animals during its lifetime.

I can see that people would not be as willing to eat meat after they have assisted in raising the animal that the meat has come from, but it is not considered that the meat you buy in a store was also an animal once and most of them suffer throughout their lives for the benefit and satisfaction of people around the world. If the animal was to have a full and enjoyable life, then when you kill them you are not depriving an animal of a life, but allowing them to end their life with dignity.

The same should be done of humans, as once they are dead their bodies can be used to feed animals so that we can give back as we have received. Of course all meat needs to be checked to see if it is safe for consumption in terms of any medication that was taken by the human that can harm the animal.

If you agree with this, or have similar ideas join us for discussion here:

www.equalmoney.org

Related articles

• Day 33 - Forgive me Father for I have Sinned!
• Day 209: Correcting instead of Sidestepping
• Day 357 - Writing about who I am within Writing Part 2
• Day 396: Paranoia: the Home of Human Reason - Part Two
• Day 225: Equality and Disinformation - Equality and Human Rights - Part 4
• I am Insecure, What do you think of me - Day 346
• Day 208: Freedom and Limitation - Two Sides fof the Same Coin
• Day 207: Buying Power and the Idea of Freedom
• Day 204: It Can't be That Easy
• Day 203: My Head is like a Broken Record

Day 19 - Thats NOT FAIR!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame myself for failing my drivers test
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame the instructor for failing me
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry at myself for failing my first attempt at the test
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have expected myself to pass and feel disappointed and angry at myself for failing
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to whine and complain about the fact that I did not see it as fair that I was failed as the point that I was failed on was not part of the test
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry about the fact that I was failed unfairly
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not want to admit to myself that I had been whining about the fact that I failed
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that people will tell me that I am acting liking a whining little child
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being seen and perceived as a whining little child
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate people to be sympathetic to me by telling them how I was unfairly failed
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the point of me failing the test, as a point to get attention
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realise that I was angry at myself for whining as much as for failing
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use anger as a way to not see the point of me getting my ego bruised as the point that is perpetuating much of the anger that I am holding onto
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear getting my ego bruised
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the anger as a punishment for failing, bruising my ego and for damaging the perceived idea I have of how people see me
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to let go of the anger I have at myself and the instructor
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take out my anger on my body
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use muscle pain as a punishment for failing, bruising my ego and for damaging the perceived idea I have of how people see me
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use back pain as a constant unforgiving reminder of how I fucked up like an idiot
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as an idiot for not passing my test
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see myself as less than since I have failed my test
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the physical so as to torture myself
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to let go of the physical pain I have placed within myself out of fear of failing again
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear driving again because I failed my test
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to push people to let me drive so as to keep to the principles of driving necessary to pass my retest
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see people being a lot more resistant to the point of me driving as them saying that since I failed the test I can never drive again
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take people not letting me drive personally
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry at the people I have gone to town with not letting me drive using bad excuses as to why I can’t drive
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not take them on and push them to let me drive so as to practice otherwise I will fail my test
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge them and be angry at them even though I haven’t pushed as hard as I should have
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to assume that the people wouldn’t let me drive because I failed my test and they no longer think that I can drive
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the people think that I cannot drive because I failed my test
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry at people out my perceived believe that they think that I can no longer drive
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take out my anger on anyone that gave me a reason no matter how small
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the anger I was feeling for failing
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear failing the second test
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being angry at the fact that I have to wait another two months and take more lessons before I can drive myself around
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry that I do not have the ability to drive myself and Maite around but instead have to adhere to the limitations set by the people that can drive
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry that it is taking so long to get my drivers license
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being disappointed at the fact that I postponed my drivers license for so long and now that I had the chance I fucked it up
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use pain as a suppression tool for my anger
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use self-pity as a trigger for releasing my anger onto others

Related articles

• Justifying Reactions Through Communication
• Day 158: Angry and I Don't Know Why
• Day 6 Driving Lesson and Self-Sabotage
• Day 2 - Fear of change

Day 18 - My Failed Test

Niamh passed her driving test - first time! (Photo credit: Danny McL)

I recently took and failed my first try at the driver’s license test. I don’t do well with failure. I rebooked my test for the soonest available test which is the 16th of January. The reason I failed my test is two-sided. The one side is that I screwed up and got stuck on the road for about two minutes, but the instructor told me I failed because the guy that was behind me hooted, the guy was behind me for about 20 seconds before he overtook me and I didn’t hear him hoot – which is not something that I can technically be failed on, but I didn’t know that at the time. The other side is that I gave the instructor the opportunity to fail me by getting stuck, although I do not understand why he failed me as he told me I was a very good driver, but I have heard that the departments have to fail a certain amount of people (I do not know if that is true) and I gave him the opportunity to fail me, no matter what the reason.

I know that I am blaming the instructor. I have not actually dealt with the anger. I have been writing about anything other than myself so as to avoid looking at this point – not that what I have been writing is pointless – I am just saying that I have used these other points as a distraction.

I have been in a lot more physical pain and stiffness since I failed the test. I looked at why the other day and realised that I was using my muscles and my body to suppress the anger that I am feeling. I was trying to use my body as a hiding place, my pain as a distraction and my self-pity as a trigger to release the anger on anyone who gives me a reason.

To Be Continued…

Related articles

• Blog: Why are driving test pass rates higher in rural areas? - Confused.com
• Would you pass your driving test if you re-took it today?
• AA calls for new rules for trainee driving instructors
• Cheating driving instructor tricked his pupils into paying for fake driving tests
• Failure is an Option.